I don't know anyone serving right now. My grandpa served but he died a long time ago. I feel like there is something I should do.........someone I should thank........and I know no one! So, if you have have served, are serving, or have a loved one who served or is serving, tell them I said THANK YOU!!!!!!! I know our freedoms have been hard won with lots of bravery and peril! I appreciate it.
In that time honored tradition of Memorial Day we are going to a BBQ! We are bringing chicken breasts to grill so hopefully I can keep my eating under control. This is has been one of the better control weekend with eating I have had in awhile. So, I want to keep it up.
I am feeling a little better than I did the last time I posted with all of my "whines." My dad is still in the hospital. He is on a feeding tube but has been moved out of ICU into a room! That's progress! I got to talk to him on the phone and I cried like a baby! It was so good to hear his voice. He sounded so weak though and he said he had been to edge. He has some ways to go before he can be released, but daily things are looking up. Turned out that the blockage in his throat was a yeast infection. With antibiotics, that can be cleared up quickly.
It is that TOM of the month so there is some bloating/water retention but remarkably I feel better than the I did to the days leading up to it.
Everyone have a safe, HEALTHY, Memorial Day.
Monday, May 26, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Emotional Hunger
I am STARVING RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it is all emotional! SIGH
Here is a great article about the difference between being hungry and "emotional hunger."
http://www.utexas.edu/student/cmhc/outreach/8traits.html
Here is a great article about the difference between being hungry and "emotional hunger."
http://www.utexas.edu/student/cmhc/outreach/8traits.html
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I'm stressed and showing it.................
Is it really only Wednesday???
I feel like I have lived enough in three days for three weeks. I am stressed out. So much is going on right now that I find it hard to focus on one thing at a time and therefore my food choices have SUCKED.
1.) My dad is sick. The latest: His esophagus is blocked by something and he can't eat or drink. However, his lungs are so weak with the pneumonia that they don't want to scope it out b/c they are afraid he'd go into respiratory distress. If that happened they were afraid they would have to put him on a ventilator and that he might not be able to come off of it. He hasn't eaten in days (like 5) and he has been in ICU for 7. And not eating is messing up his diabetes. (Vicious cycle)
2.) This week is the big End Of Grade Tests (EOG) in our state (NC). I have prepared my students as much as I can, however, I want them to succeed so badly and I ache for those who struggle. Also, the last few weeks I reviewed all the necessary skills and it has been intensive; for me and the students. But the last two days, with only one more to god thank goodness, I have walked and paced my room for three hours straight while watching the kids test. We have to be on constant alert for problems as they test. I only sat down twice today---both times for about 3 minutes.
3.) My husband is having trouble at work and we are a cross-roads. He can stay and be miserable and possibly get fired (the boss dislikes him) OR look for another job (which he has sent his resume out to see what is out there) OR start his own business (which of course has its own possible pitfalls). He has wanted to start his own biz for a long time....... So stressed out on the future of our little family.
4.) I start (TOM)b next week so I know I am bloated and hormonal and edgy but I feel completely out of control food wise. There was so much food at school the last couple of days b/c they were feeding the volunteers-----donuts, granola bars, coffee, bagels.........ugh. I DID walk away from everything but a granola bar on Tuesday but ate 1/4 of a donut today. Luckily it was gross or I probably would have eaten the whole thing. But I will take a victory where ever I can.
5.) I have only lost 12 pounds since Feb!!! Twelve pounds in 4 months!!! That's NOTHING! I feel like such a failure. I am so frustrated and tired.
6.) ONE GOOD THING: I have managed to work out for 5 days last week and already 3 this week. I have that part mostly under control. I am still not sure what I am doing though. Should I be changing it up more? How long is long enough? Should I add weights? Which ones? How much? How often? Arms? Legs? Abs? Back? How many calories should I eat to lose weight? I am clueless. I just get on and go for 30-40 minutes and hope for the best. I DO change machines every once in awhile but I love the elliptical b/c it doesn't hurt my knees. So I stick to it mostly. I DO take classes every Saturday too, and some of them involve weights.
Anyway, sorry for the WHINE fest? Thanks for "listening".
I feel like I have lived enough in three days for three weeks. I am stressed out. So much is going on right now that I find it hard to focus on one thing at a time and therefore my food choices have SUCKED.
1.) My dad is sick. The latest: His esophagus is blocked by something and he can't eat or drink. However, his lungs are so weak with the pneumonia that they don't want to scope it out b/c they are afraid he'd go into respiratory distress. If that happened they were afraid they would have to put him on a ventilator and that he might not be able to come off of it. He hasn't eaten in days (like 5) and he has been in ICU for 7. And not eating is messing up his diabetes. (Vicious cycle)
2.) This week is the big End Of Grade Tests (EOG) in our state (NC). I have prepared my students as much as I can, however, I want them to succeed so badly and I ache for those who struggle. Also, the last few weeks I reviewed all the necessary skills and it has been intensive; for me and the students. But the last two days, with only one more to god thank goodness, I have walked and paced my room for three hours straight while watching the kids test. We have to be on constant alert for problems as they test. I only sat down twice today---both times for about 3 minutes.
3.) My husband is having trouble at work and we are a cross-roads. He can stay and be miserable and possibly get fired (the boss dislikes him) OR look for another job (which he has sent his resume out to see what is out there) OR start his own business (which of course has its own possible pitfalls). He has wanted to start his own biz for a long time....... So stressed out on the future of our little family.
4.) I start (TOM)b next week so I know I am bloated and hormonal and edgy but I feel completely out of control food wise. There was so much food at school the last couple of days b/c they were feeding the volunteers-----donuts, granola bars, coffee, bagels.........ugh. I DID walk away from everything but a granola bar on Tuesday but ate 1/4 of a donut today. Luckily it was gross or I probably would have eaten the whole thing. But I will take a victory where ever I can.
5.) I have only lost 12 pounds since Feb!!! Twelve pounds in 4 months!!! That's NOTHING! I feel like such a failure. I am so frustrated and tired.
6.) ONE GOOD THING: I have managed to work out for 5 days last week and already 3 this week. I have that part mostly under control. I am still not sure what I am doing though. Should I be changing it up more? How long is long enough? Should I add weights? Which ones? How much? How often? Arms? Legs? Abs? Back? How many calories should I eat to lose weight? I am clueless. I just get on and go for 30-40 minutes and hope for the best. I DO change machines every once in awhile but I love the elliptical b/c it doesn't hurt my knees. So I stick to it mostly. I DO take classes every Saturday too, and some of them involve weights.
Anyway, sorry for the WHINE fest? Thanks for "listening".
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Dad's Sick......
I have been out of my Dad's house for a long time. I had 5 years of college, 3 years living alone, 1 yr with finance, and now 8 years married.
So, how come when I hear that my dad is ill do I feel 8 years old again??? I was, and still am, such a Daddy's girl. I was the girl lying under the car with him getting dirty and oily asking a million questions. I was the one who went deer hunting with him at 3 a.m. I use to want to be a boy so I could be my dad when I grew up.
I live in NC. He lives in Texas. He is in the hospital and I can't see him!!!! And it is killing me. Luckily, he is stable and I spoke with his nurse and she thinks he will go home soon. He is 75. He has CHF, Diabetes, Asbestos Lung Poisoning, IBS. etc...etc...etc... and is in the hospital with pneumonia and an infection which dropped his blood pressure pretty low.
I am so sad and worried.
DD and I have tickets for June 18th already. So, in a worse case scenario, I can just change my flights. Not that sickness EVER comes at a good time, but this is really a bad time to be taking off from work. I am a teacher and this next week (M-H) is the end of year state tests. OF COURSE, I will go to Texas w/o blinking an eye if I have to, but I also want to be there for my students. I guess I have prepared them all I can anyway.
SIGH
So, how come when I hear that my dad is ill do I feel 8 years old again??? I was, and still am, such a Daddy's girl. I was the girl lying under the car with him getting dirty and oily asking a million questions. I was the one who went deer hunting with him at 3 a.m. I use to want to be a boy so I could be my dad when I grew up.
I live in NC. He lives in Texas. He is in the hospital and I can't see him!!!! And it is killing me. Luckily, he is stable and I spoke with his nurse and she thinks he will go home soon. He is 75. He has CHF, Diabetes, Asbestos Lung Poisoning, IBS. etc...etc...etc... and is in the hospital with pneumonia and an infection which dropped his blood pressure pretty low.
I am so sad and worried.
DD and I have tickets for June 18th already. So, in a worse case scenario, I can just change my flights. Not that sickness EVER comes at a good time, but this is really a bad time to be taking off from work. I am a teacher and this next week (M-H) is the end of year state tests. OF COURSE, I will go to Texas w/o blinking an eye if I have to, but I also want to be there for my students. I guess I have prepared them all I can anyway.
SIGH
Friday, May 16, 2008
If you forgot to brush your teeth last night........
If you forgot to brush your teeth last night, did you decide this morning to throw in the towel and never brush your teeth again? Since you're obviously a slob who doesn't have enough self- discipline to remember to brush your teeth, why bother brushing them at all if you forgot to last night?
Of course not.
So if you had ice cream for dinner last night, or didn't exercise yesterday, or gained a pound this week, don't throw in the towel! Make a healthier choice for dinner tonight by eating something lean. Go for a short walk. Weigh in again next week.
Just do NOT give up.
(I completely stole this from a sparkpeople blog---credit goes to LISAHAS2CATS. I just thought it was great and wanted to share.)
Of course not.
So if you had ice cream for dinner last night, or didn't exercise yesterday, or gained a pound this week, don't throw in the towel! Make a healthier choice for dinner tonight by eating something lean. Go for a short walk. Weigh in again next week.
Just do NOT give up.
(I completely stole this from a sparkpeople blog---credit goes to LISAHAS2CATS. I just thought it was great and wanted to share.)
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Great works and some inspiration
OK so I needed some inspiration today! Was surfing stuff on Sparkpeople and saw some quotes from different people. I decided to "Steal" them and post here for others to enjoy.
1.) "Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance."
- Samuel Johnson
2.) Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
~Leon J. Suenes~
3.) Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.
~ Dr. Dale Turner
4.)
If you think you are beaten, you are.
If you think you dare not, you don't;
If you'd like to win but think you can't,
It's almost a cinch you won't,
If you think you'll lose,
You're lost;
For out in the world we find
Success begins with a person's will,
It's all in the state of mind.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster hand;
But sooner or later
The person who wins
Is the one who thinks "I can."
Hope there is something there for everyone and it makes you smile and feel more motivated.
1.) "Great works are performed not by strength but by perseverance."
- Samuel Johnson
2.) Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
~Leon J. Suenes~
3.) Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.
~ Dr. Dale Turner
4.)
If you think you are beaten, you are.
If you think you dare not, you don't;
If you'd like to win but think you can't,
It's almost a cinch you won't,
If you think you'll lose,
You're lost;
For out in the world we find
Success begins with a person's will,
It's all in the state of mind.
Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster hand;
But sooner or later
The person who wins
Is the one who thinks "I can."
Hope there is something there for everyone and it makes you smile and feel more motivated.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Danger/Caution/Beware/Warning
Here's a good article that blew me away! Made me think.
What two colors do you think of when you think of warnings of danger or hazards? I think of yellow and red.....among others. But yellow and red right? Red means hot, war, stop, danger, hazards.......etc........ Yellow means: caution, slow down, be careful, pay attention. This article explains, and points out, that nature (coral snakes) and humans alike use these colors to warn you. So why does McDee's as well as other fast-food chains decorate their stores in red and yellow??? BECAUSE THEY ARE DANGEROUS!!!!!!!!!! WATCH OUT! HAZARD! BEWARE! WARNING!!!
Read the article. Way cool.
http://www.aiga.org/content.cfm/red-and-yellow-kills-a-fellow
What two colors do you think of when you think of warnings of danger or hazards? I think of yellow and red.....among others. But yellow and red right? Red means hot, war, stop, danger, hazards.......etc........ Yellow means: caution, slow down, be careful, pay attention. This article explains, and points out, that nature (coral snakes) and humans alike use these colors to warn you. So why does McDee's as well as other fast-food chains decorate their stores in red and yellow??? BECAUSE THEY ARE DANGEROUS!!!!!!!!!! WATCH OUT! HAZARD! BEWARE! WARNING!!!
Read the article. Way cool.
http://www.aiga.org/content.cfm/red-and-yellow-kills-a-fellow
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